it was a technicolor moment... the tv screen went from black and white to living color! i had just witnessed that jaw-dropping scene from the wizard of oz for the first time. dorothy had just walked out of her house and into munchkin land. what made it even more exciting was that i had waited for around 18-20 years to watch it because we had to be in church on sunday evening. every sunday evening. but on the once-a-year oz tv sunday evening, i wanted to be home. i wanted to watch the magic on tv.
of course, i had to hear 10,000 reiterations of various scenes at school the next morning. had i the nerve, i would have taken the school p.a. system hostage, telling everyone to shut their damn mouths about that movie.
i am hoping for a dorothy moment.. soon. beginning in 6 days, i will be given a gift somewhat like dorothy's special shoes, that will help me lose weight very quickly. but the journey from there will be mine. every step will be a choice of my own. like dorothy, i have friends and family who are supportive and helpful. donna and i have worked on buying, storing, storing, and experimenting with foods that i can eat. it will be about 12 weeks before i can eat bits of normal food.
but ultimately, having had the joys, fears, fun, tears, setbacks, and the moveforwards of my oz experience, it will be me, only me that can decide my path saying, "i want to go home".
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