Anticipanxiety

i have submitted this word to webster.  hopefully he will understand that anticipation and anxiety feel very similar, even though brought on by different events. 

i have been chatting with my 90-mentor/artist friend who is making her yearly trek to sante fe, new mexico.  yesterday, she told me that she is packing for her trip although she is leaving in two weeks!  this woman lives for this trips, where she creates her own brands of art.  and she shops for jewelry, silver of course.  we will visit her in early october to share in her experiences and adventures.

next week i have an important appt. with my pulmonologist in cincinnati.  i am supposed to learn more about the prognosis and treatment plan for this new disease.  i am anticipating the appointment, feeling the anxiety grow with each new day that i wait.  i wish the appointment were tomorrow. 

jane and i share a common experience.  waiting and anticipating an event in the near future.  for both of us, the closer it gets the more it seems like forever.  she said the anticipation is sometimes half of the fun of the event itself.  each day, she will anticipate what will happen the next day.  in fact, she is already anticipating her trip in 2012!! 

so to redirect my anxiety energy, i am doing the jane thing... anticipating our next trip to the beach in may 2012.  it will be so much fun!  i will wait a few weeks before packing.