today was a unique day (as if all days are not?). donna and i packed up my office to clear the way for a new therapist and for a new phase of my life. i will be in and out of the office this next week to finish paperwork and administrative duties, and friday will be my last day.
we left the house about 8am with both cars, empty boxes, some energy, and many mixed emotions. approaching the university, i resigned my feelings to a deep, private place and entered the building in business mode.
my mind took note of my professional books, the purple decor which had become my trademark, and several trinkets and 'do-dads' that i had collected over the years. so many things reminded me of my students, the staff, the university community. i placed those memories in that deep, private space to be sorted out in due time.
turning off those emotions, not suppressing them, allowed me to do the work that needed to be done. and with the help of hugo and a dolly, we carted out most everything rather quickly. had a major clean-up not occurred last summer, the job would have been enormous.
after putting the last load into the car, donna left me to say goodbye to my office. i needed a few private minutes. a few tears flowed, but much more so, a deep appreciation and gratefulness arose for all the opportunities the university had given me.
coming home exhausted, i showered and went for a nap, which didn't happen... a good sign that my mind was churning. so i got up, had some lunch, relaxed for awhile...
and then the sleep came. deep sleep.
a friend commented that my last day is on the same weekend as my birthday. such rich symbols of passage, transition, and renewal. life to be continued...
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